Now that I have seen, I am responsible
Faith without deeds is dead
Now that I have held you in my own arms, I cannot let go till you are
...
I will tell the world, I will tell them where I've been
I will keep my word
I will tell them Albertine

- Brooke Fraser

Friday, 17 August 2012

From Dad's Heart

The following is a blogpost that my dad wrote following our trip to Guatemala...
Enjoy! (More information re: the greenhouse project to come)



My eldest daughter Rebecca wanted me to go and see Guatemala where she had spent 2 and a half months volunteering last year in a medical clinic. It wasn’t really something that was on the top of my must do things. However for those of you who have daughters you know how they can convince you to do what you would otherwise not even contemplate.
   So it came to pass that I had committed to go to Guatemala with Rebecca for the last week in June. I was rather busy with work at the time so it would have been easy to cancel and legitimately say I was too busy. But I had committed, so I kept my calendar clear and on June 22 we were on our way. I did not expect to do much as I thought a High Tec farmer from North America would have little to add to the Guatemalan way of agriculture.
  The flight was 5 hours from LA to Guatemala city. Once there, we went through customs, grabbed our luggage, and exited the security area. Les Peters was there to welcome and take us back to Tactic where the mission is situated. I had meet Les and his wife Rita a year prior at our home in California. For those of you who don’t know him, he and his wife are incredible people who have given up the comforts of Canadian life to dedicate it to the people of the mountainous area of Tactic.
   We arrived late so we spent the night in Guatemala City after stopping for a late night meal at Pollo Campero for some very over cooked chicken. There was another group of school grads from Snohomish, Washington who also arrived that night and would accompany us to Tactic.
    After a good nights sleep we were off in a sprinter bus and another van to our destination. Guatemala City is a sprawling metropolis of vehicles, shops, and small businesses eking a living. It took us almost an hour to get to the outskirts and take the highway to Tactic. The first stretch was a newly concreted 4 lane highway that was almost better than North American standards. It is said to have been donated by the Taiwanese government. We soon ran out of the fine highway and downsized to a 2 lane highway. That would not have been to dab had it have not been for the trucks of aging descent that had to climb the hills and go to descend them again. The country seems to be endless mountains. To be stuck behind a truck going 10 miles per hour was more the norm than the exception. Solid lines on the roads that prohibit passing did not seem to be of concern to the drivers. Many a close call were encountered as oncoming traffic headed down the opposite lane as it went around the corners. We were about half way to Tactic when the Sprinter began to act up. Les commented that there was too many red lights appearing on the dash to be good – we needed to pull over. After checking under the hood, it became clear what the issue was: the serpentine belt had given up and broke in 2. The engine was over heated and we had no charging ability.  There wasn’t much we could do but to get towed into Tactic. The other van stopped and we loaded as many passengers as possible into it and got together volunteers to stay with the van and wait for a tow truck or ride (I was one of them). This gave some time to better observe the countryside. A lone farmer was methodically going up and down on the steep terrain seeding his corn. Watermelon was trying to grow on another section. Farming was all done by hand what would have taken a mere fraction of time in the US. The police stopped by to check us out and insisted that they needed to protect us. Some 3 hours later the bus that had taken the others returned to pick us up. A staff member stayed behind to wait for the tow truck to pick up the Sprinter. The police demanded their payment for protection before the tow truck was allowed to take the van to its final destination. We finally made it to the city in twice as long a time as was planned.
     We stayed at a guesthouse in the city of Tactic that was rented by the mission for visitors. The accommodations were fine with a few exceptions that we were not used to. The water was not potable and it was right behind a distribution point for the cities wares. Also once it hit 5 in the morning, you may as well forget about sleeping as the roosters, trucks, dogs etc. will keep you awake. It is also a tradition there to light off firecrackers at 4:30 in the morning on one’s birthday – and in a city of 8,000 that is a daily occurrence. There are guns everywhere as guards need to protect anything of value or it would soon be gone. Even McDonald’s in the main cities have armed guards
    Yet all of these things are to be expected in a third world nation. I could handle that. However, what was to come as I was shown more of the country and its culture would change my life forever.
    The next day was Sunday so off to church we went. It was a small church and the preacher was certainly vibrant and had an intensity not often seen in our North American churches. Even though I could not understand Spanish, this was abundantly clear. It was a celebration in many ways. As the service began, Rebecca had her sponsor child recognize her half and run to her arms. She stayed sitting on her lap for the remainder of the service until the children were dismissed for Sunday School. We were welcomed warmly.
   That afternoon we went Rio de Vida church, which is Impact Ministries main church where Les and Rita pastor. It was larger but had the same intensity as the morning service we attended.
   The following days Les took me around to see the agriculture and the countryside and to gain an understanding of how agriculture was done. One of Impact’s first graduates, Edgar, was along as he had gone on to attend college for agriculture. I learned a lot about how they grew things and the challenges they were confronted with. I also got to understand a piece of the Mayan culture and how it affects their way of thinking and living. I also learned how Les and Rita worked to educate the youth and build 5 schools with 1300 students in the 12 years they have lived in Guatemala. Education is a huge need as many are illiterate and the public school system is greatly lacking in Guatemala.
   The Mayan religion is still highly pagan as witches offer sacrifices to their gods. We saw places where the offerings are given to the corn god and also visited a sinkhole where sacrifices are practiced regularly. As a result, these people are stuck in a life that is under bondage and one that keeps them in a state of hunger and despair. They are fearful of changing centuries’ old corn seed for fear of retribution from the corn god and their ancestors. Marriage is not a practiced custom in Guatemala and therefore, there are many children without fathers. A lot of these children do not attend school and are suffering from malnourishment and many other social issues that are appalling to us.
   On the fourth day in Tactic, I attended one of Impact’s schools and witnessed the beginning of their day. The children were all in uniform and sang their hearts out, worshiping and praising God. This is where I was affected the most. Questions ran through my mind.  What would become of these kids when they were done with school or when they needed to stay and work or the girls would be given away at ages sometimes as young as 14? Les and Rita have done amazing things with the schools but there is so much more that needs to be done to protect these precious kids from their potentially destructive culture.
    What could I do? Can one just sit back and shrug this of? Has God not commanded us to help those in need? Or do we just say the challenge is too much and go back to our comfortable life style? Why are we better than these kids? Did we choose where we were born and who are parents are, or what country would be our home? I could not say that I could go back home with an intact conscious and continue to live in our luxurious lifestyle. God had called me to do more. What could that be?
   As the days progressed it became clearer to me. Most Mayans eat only beans, rice, and corn tortillas. Vegetables and fruit are rarely eaten. Can this be changed? I believe we can teach them to read and write and to do math. But we must also teach them nutrition and to change their eating habits. New highly productive corn needs to be introduced. Vegetables need to be introduced into their diets. How can we do this?
   This is certainly challenging and will take a generation or more. Too daunting? Perhaps. I am sure that Les and Rita would have had that same thought yet they persevered. The fruits of their labor are obvious.
    I am committed to do my part.
       Will you join me?


    More to come.

Casey 
 

Thursday, 28 June 2012

Precious Family





More pictures to come but here is a photo at Sunday morning church with my sponsor child and her whole family!  They are amazing.  I feel as if they are a part of my family and although I know I have been a blessing to them - they have been such a blessing to me and my life!  I know my dad has been greatly impacted by them also.  We went to their house on Monday (which I will write about later) and it was amazing.  :)

Spirit of God would you fall in this place

Guatemala is amazing.  I can't describe to you how great it is.  I feel peace, joy, and love here.  I feel at home as I am surrounded by sisters and brothers in Christ.  I wish I could write about everything that I have experienced but I cannot.  It is hard to express how good God is and what He is doing in the lives of the people here - including mine.
I do not have time to write much tonight but I will quickly say that God is moving and making a huge difference here.  We are being challenged and changed through God's grace.  Today we went to one of Impact's schools and during the worship devotional God's Spirit was so tangible. The children were worshiping with all of their hearts - so passionately.  There were children bowing before the Lord spontaneously.  They were thanking God with all of their hearts - even though they live in the poorest area that Impact is involved in.  Once again during the song that says "I believe in you and what you are doing in me, Receive all the glory and all the honor" I was brought to tears.  Afterwards during a prayer time, we were asked to raise our hands if wanted God to have all of our lives.  By the end of the prayer I was really crying and just felt God so close to me.  I will tell you more individually about this experience but God was really tangible and there with all of the students and our group.  It was amazing and something that I wish I could never be apart from.
God is so good and doing amazing things.

Blessings and love.

Tuesday, 26 June 2012

No hay nadie como Tu

This post is from Sunday.... Due to power outages and computer troubles here it is: There is no one like God! Already my time here has been amazing - I can say the same for my dad. Today we attended two church services (the first started off as a cell group of 15 and now has over 50 in attendance and the second is Impact's main church - Rio de Vida). At the first church service, I grabbed my seat and looked up to see a girl smiling so big at me. She ran towards me and gave me a huge hug! It was Yoselina my sponsor child! Her whole family was at church and it warmed my heart to see them praising the Lord - my heart was especially moved by her father's genuine worship. Before the children were dismissed for Sunday School, she sat on my lap and just clung to me. I asked her if it was a surprise to see me and she was like "SI!!!!!" She was so happy. Prior to worship the team we are here with had the time to speak to the congregation. My dad also got up and spoke and said how he thought he came here for me but instead realized it was for God. He told them how no matter who we are, we all have the same loving God and can glorify him with our lives despite where we live etc. During worship we sang my favorite song - recibe toda la Gloria y la honra. God impacted my life and spoke to me through that song last year and being able to sing it again alongside my dad, Yoselina, and all the other Guatemalans brought tears to my eyes. The sermon was preached by a man who came to know the Lord through his sons. They are now in their later teenage years and are students at Impact's schools. He spoke about Matt 6:25-33 and why Christians don't feel like they are growing. He reminded us that we must open every room of our lives to Him and when we fail, because we will, that instead of closing the doors we should make them bigger! The service at Rio de Vida was also very impacting and relevant. We were asked at the beginning of the service if we were ready for what God wants to do in our lives. This got me thinking.... Am I ready? Am I allowing God to work in and through me? He spoke on James 1:22-25 and really emphasized the need not to just be hearers of the word but to let the word impact us and truly change our lives. To love as Christ loved! He said our calling wasn't meant to be an easy one but one that we must take up our cross and follow Him. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it - he will be blessed in what he does. James 1:25

Saturday, 23 June 2012

mi casa en guatemala

After two days travel, we are successfully in Guatemala with Impact Ministries!  We are safe and sound.  I am feeling back at home (although the house is now green, not yellow) and Dad is experiencing some culture shock.  
I am so happy to be back.  Seeing familiar faces, smelling the Guatemalan smells, seeing the sights, and tasting the food is bringing back so many memories! 
Today we started off in Guatemala City... got to see a few sights and drink milk fresher than ever before - right from the goat!  We then drove the route that is beginning to feel familiar to me and after lunch and some car troubles, we arrived!  
I cannot wait for the adventures that tomorrow and the rest of the week hold.  God is so good and is doing amazing things here.  I am so blessed by this place and know this week will once again be life altering.
Although I did not really do anything today, I am exhausted so off to bed I go.  I'll update you on tomorrow - the church service(s) and whatever else it may hold!
Buenas noches y hasta luego,
Rebecca

Thursday, 21 June 2012

Back to the place that holds a piece of my heart

I am currently sitting at the Vancouver Airport waiting for my flight to LAX where I will meet up with my dad and then fly out tomorrow to Guatemala - the place that truly holds a piece of my heart.  I cannot believe I am already going back and am so excited to see how God has been working there and what He has in store for my dad and I.  This is going to be a really special trip as my dad and I haven't been able to spend that much time together as he is busy with work and I am away at school.  He has never been on a missions trip and I am actually so excited to see God rock his world.  I really believe Guatemala is a place where God changes lives (as He changed mine) and I can't wait to see how it affects my dad!  I will try to keep my blog updated on our travels in Guatemala and work with Impact Ministries!  
Thank you for everyone who has been praying.  Please continue to pray for safety and open hearts to what God would have us do.
Thank you so much!  
Lots of love, Rebecca

Never consider whether or not you are of use - but always consider that you are not your own - you are His! 
-Oswald Chambers

Thursday, 10 November 2011

I love that there is hope.

It has been an awful long time since I have blogged.  Life has been crazy.  I have been slammed in the face with cancer and illness among friends and family.  I have been absolutely overwhelmed working with the mentally ill.  But I have been so blessed.  I am surrounded by amazing friends, professors, and family.  I love being at Trinity.  I love that I do not feel like I should be here.  I love that Guatemala is still on my heart.  I love that I am crazy and adding a minor to my degree half way through my third year.  I'm going to be busy but so excited to learn more about missions and where God is calling me.  I love that God is good.  I love that I can say He is love because I know it to be true.
I love God.  I love that He has a plan for me.  I love that there is hope - even when it seems like there is not.  

I love that I came across a thing about my little friend Alberto in Guatemala.
This is what it said:

Alberto
Age: 2 years, 3 months
Birthday: May 23
Date admitted: March 15, 2011
Weight at time of admittance: 13.1 Lbs.
Referred by: National Hospital – Antigua
About Alberto: When Alberto arrived in May, he had a number of infections, including a painful diaper rash that left his bottom cracked and bleeding. He cried constantly, could not stand, and despite being 2 years old, was not yet using any words to express himself. While Alberto still gets tearful at diaper changes from the fear that being changed may hurt like it did in the past, he spends most of his day smiling, giggling, and chatting away to volunteers and fellow patients. He is able to walk whole holding someone’s hand, is beginning to make simple 2-word sentences, and absolutely LOVES hugs. While Alberto is still behind others his age, he has come so far, and is a very bright little boy who will do well as he continues growing healthier and stronger.
 
Wow!  I am so blessed to have known him and been able to spend a couple hours just holding, loving, and praying for him.  
Thank you Lord for hope.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. - Romans 15:13

Monday, 15 August 2011

Hit with Reality.

Now is a time when I wish I was in Guatemala.  Shocking reality hits.  My friend and roommate, Ingrid, is going through a really tough time.  I don't know if you read my post from a while ago about Marvin, her brother.  He had a brain tumor.  It seemed like God had healed him for he felt a peace and the doctors could not find anything on the scan the day he was booked to have brain surgery.  But a few weeks ago things went really down hill.  He was suffering a lot and I just found out that last Friday God took him away at the age of 22.  Thank the Lord that he is now pain free but what about all the people left on Earth who truly were trusting God to heal him?  What about all the people who are now so filled with pain and grief?  I am in shock.  It is always so difficult to hear about people dying at such young ages.  They did not live their life and have a family.  But I guess he fulfilled his purpose here on Earth...

Lord, You only know why Marvin is with You now.  You chose not to heal Him.  Your ways are perfect.  Please help us to understand, and if not understand at least know that You work for the good of all who love You and that Your plans are perfect.  Give Marvin's family peace.  Help them to not doubt but to know You are with them through this and know how they feel for you too lost your son.  Thank you for Marvin's life and thank you for your love.



Please pray for Ingrid and her family - Julio (her older brother), Julie (Julio's fiance), Don Julio (her father) and Doña Juanita (her mother). 

Tuesday, 9 August 2011

God has been good


God has been good (Dios ha sido bueno).  My transition back to Canada has been odd.  I did not really notice it at first but I was not myself.  I was not motivated to do a bunch of things (including my summer school homework).  I was here but not fully.  But God has been so good.  My eyes have been opened to need here and more than ever I want to live a life in service.  In Guatemala my purpose being there was to serve the people of Tactic and the surrounding areas.  God was in everything.  I don't see why life can't be like that here.  It is too easy to get caught in the motions.  To do things without heart.  My challenge has been to do everything intentionally - serving God purposefully. 
I am working at a care home for the elderly.  I am a RCA (Registered Care Aide).  Basically, I am there to dress, clean, and help feed the people at this home.  That is breaking it down to its simplist form but it is true.  Right now I am working the night shift.  So basically everyone is sleeping.  I get calls if they need a bed pan or a Tylenol or if they simply cannot sleep.  It is easy to become monotone - simply there to get things for them.  There is not too much conversation.  I am on the floor by myself.  Everyone is sleeping (or should be sleeping).  But then I make an effort to show God, to be His hands and feet, to everyone who calls me that night.  If I have time, to sit and chat with someone who is awake early in the morning.  And when I purposefully serve and don't just work, I am so much happier.  The shift goes by so much quicker.  I can smile back at the day (or night for most people).  I can be blessed through the elders and by the quiet time while everyone is sleeping.
God is good and has been good in my life - there is no denying that.  My goal is to show His goodness to everyone I come in contact with - to be different. 
I believe I heard this quote at Misisons Fest this year and I think it should become the goal of our lives:
Preach the gospel at all times and when necessary use words.
Love and blessings,
Rebecca

Saturday, 16 July 2011

Back in Canada

Saying goodbye to Yoselina: a hug of true love.
So I made it back onto Canadian soil - much to the relief of my parents and grandmother!  It is weird being back.  It almost seems like time could have stood still while I was in a dream world.  Sure Guatemala is not perfect but there is something almost magical there - I guess you could call that God.  God was just so present in my life while I was there.  I grew an amazing passion not only for the people of Guatemala but also for my Lord and Savior.  I felt completely at home.  I felt like I belonged there.  Like I could make a true difference.  And also like I could be impacted.  
Life is too busy in Canada.  People are worried about everything - preoccupied with the pace of life.  Don't get me wrong, Canada is an amazing country and one that we are definitely blessed to live in, but something is not quite right.  We don't know what it means to say that we fully rely on God or that God provides for all our needs.  We make the excuse of not having enough time instead of making it our first priority to set time aside with the Lord.  I have learned a lot while I was gone and now need to try and apply it to my life back in Canada.  I know I need to be more plugged in with church and core groups in Canada.  I know that I need to be more committed to serving rather than doing the tasks.  I want to live my life here in a way as similar and in tune with God as it was in Guatemala.
Things are different.  I don't know how it is all going to work out.  But I do know that God has a purpose for me being back at home.  Guatemala was a boot camp for my real mission field at home.  Canada is hungry for God but we just don't know it as we fill that hunger with void and empty things.  I want my life to truly be a light in the darkness.  I am going to be different.  I am not going to be okay with mediocre or try and justify the things of this world.  The Spirit is offensive to the flesh.  I do not want to live in the flesh at all.  I want the Spirit to lead me.  I want to be fully into God.  I want to be a servant here in my community, among my friends and coworkers.  But most of all, I don't just want to want these things.  It can't end with me wanting.  I am asking the Lord to show me opportunities in which I can serve.  I am different and strive for my life to show God all the honor and glory and in turn be contagious to others.
It would be easy for me to sit here and list all the things that are wrong with Canada - with the North American dream.  But instead, I want to focus on the good.  To see where God is working.  To see His love and beauty.  To follow the words of Philippians 4:4-8:
Rejoice in the Lord always.  I will say it again: Rejoice!  Let your gentleness be evident to all.  The Lord is near.  Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.  Finally brothers (and sisters), whatever is true, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - if anything is excellent or praiseworthy - think about such things.
May this be are goal.  Not to worry but put complete trust in God.  And to focus on the things of Him.

Blessings and love,
Rebecca

And just so you all know, I don't plan on this being anywhere close to my last blog.

Sunday, 10 July 2011

Dios Ha Sido Bueno

Dios ha sido bueno.  God has been good.  After patiently awaiting for April's team, they arrived late in the afternoon and I got a hug that I had been longing to receive.  It was so great to be able to see a piece of home again.  Although I have not felt overwhelmingly homesick, that hug was fabulous (and made me really excited to be able to hug the rest of my family and friends).  However, that time is coming too soon.  Tomorrow is my last full day here in Tactic.  But thankfully with the team here it has been busy so I haven't had time to be depressed about leaving this amazing place that I now can call home.
With the team here I have still been working in the clinic but have also been involved with the team.  They held Vacation Bible School in Impact's after school program in San Antonio.  I was privileged to be able to attend one day and help out.  The children were all so thankful and happy with everything that was offered.  I know VBS really impacted a lot of the students on April's team, including April.  I have been praying really hard for this team and that God would completely open and change their hearts.  One evening Les led the debrief and talked about surrendering everything to Jesus - that we cannot live our lives for ourselves.  By the end of the night there was not a dry eye in the room.  Before the team got here for some reason I had the idea that I would be helping them, God had taught me so much.  But God had other plans in mind.  He broke me down and I just am learning to fall more in love with Him.  I started crying that night at first when I saw how God was working in April's life and then I just really cried out to the Lord and asked Him to continue break me down and rebuild me for Him.  Throughout the time that April's team has been here, I have been feeling the Lord speak to me about pursuing my nursing further and becoming a nurse practitioner.  I have heard this through people on the team and also during prayer.  If I become a nurse practitioner, I cannot even begin to imagine the possibilities that could lie ahead for me here in Guatemala for the future.
This morning I woke up over an hour before my alarm was going to go off and felt the Lord nudging me.  Telling me that this was our time together.  I hadn't journalled much since the team has been here as I have been so exhausted by the end of the day.  My own time has disappeared.  But this morning was amazing.  I read my Bible and wrote my desires and prayers to the Lord.  These lyrics came to mind and kept repeating themselves: Lord I give you my heart, I give you my soul.  I love for you alone.  Every breath that I take, every moment I'm awake, Lord have Your way in me.  I want my life to live out these words.  I want to live for God every moment of my life.  Something happened this week that annoyed me.  I ended up having to go to Chicoy sinkhole as there were a lack of leaders along and it is a really spiritual experience.  The sinkhole is a place of Mayan worship and is truly a heavy spiritual place.  So instead of going to the clinic I got driven to meet the team.  I was annoyed and frustrated.  But then I realized that I shouldn't be.  God has other plans in store.  It wasn't just a coincidence that I was going.  I prayed that I would be there to be able to comfort and speak God's truth to the kids who needed it.  That God would use me for His will and just fill me with His love and joy.  That prayer changed my outlook.  The experience was so moving.  While we entered I was able to encourage a few of the girls that God is so much bigger than anything that could possibly be in the sinkhole.  We believe in an all-powerful and all-loving God.  Yes, darkness is real.  But we know something greater.  Then after exploring a little in the sinkhole, we gathered together and started worshiping the Lord.  During the time of exploring, a witchdoctor had entered the sinkhole with two of his clients.  We worshiped God in spirit and truth and I know that the witchdoctor knew that something greater than he could ever do was present in that place.  He didn't start anything until we left and they watched us worship.  We were asked to get into the position we would go in if we were in front of our Lord.  Although we were in a dirty, soot-covered sinkhole, I went to my knees and just reached my arms to the Lord.  This trip I definitely have learned a lot about worship and have gained so much from it.  The Lord is good and has amazing plans in store for those He loves.  He can do so much more than we can even begin to imagine and He can free those people from the bondage they are in.  He can free the people of Guatemala from this darkness.  And He already has and is in the process of doing it.  He is good and He will free His people!
Yesterday I had the opportunity to visit April's new sponsor child, my grandma's sponsor child, and Yoselina and her family again.  It was a really special day.  While we were in Yoselina's home, God's presence was so evident.  That family is so filled with His love and goodness.  Despite their circumstances, they bought us all cookies and pop and just enjoyed their time with the group.  When I first arrived, Yoselina sprinted into my arms and definitely beat her last hug - she gave me the best hug ever.  She wouldn't let go of me the whole time.  God has been in every moment I have had with her.  I told her I loved her so much and would be praying for their family every day.  She almost started crying when I told her I was leaving soon and wouldn't see her again until hopefully next year.  If I had only met Yoselina and her family during my time here, this trip would have been worth it.  I love them.  God has shown Himself through them to me and what true gratitude to Him means.
God has been so good, so good.
I love you.  God bless you and see you soon.
Rebecca

Saturday, 2 July 2011

Surrounded by His Beauty

This past week a lot of amazing things happened.  I was invited to go to El Salvador with Cathie and Walter.  El Salvador is absolutely beautiful.  We stayed in a lovely home on the beach.  I was able to relax, reflect, and just rest in God.  It was such a blessing.  
When they invited me to go with them I immediately thought of Soraya my sponsor through Compassion Canada.  I started sponsoring her 5 years ago at a youth conference in Edmonton, Alberta.  How amazing it would be if I could see her on this trip too!  Meeting your sponsor child truly makes a difference and I couldn't begin to imagine the blessing it would be to meet her.  I had emailed Compassion Canada at the beginning of the year saying I would be in Guatemala and if I had the chance to go to El Salvador that I would love to see her.  I got a huge email in reply about all the things that needed to be done before this could occur and because I had no idea how possible it would be to go there, I gave up on the idea.  So after looking back at the email I realized she lived in the surrounding area where we would be staying!  I did not know if they would allow me to see her since I did not apply and hand in any of the forms but it was worth a try, right?  Their email back was discouraging.  I felt that God placed us close together for a reason but they made it seem like a meeting would be almost impossible.  They told me if I did not hear back from them before I left that it would not work out.  I asked God to take away my discouragement and for His will to be done in this situation.  So although disappointed, I accepted that I would not get to see Soraya.  As we did not have Internet at the beach (which was really freeing), I did not think about the situation again.  I was enjoying my time at the beach with amazing people.  I was spending a lot of time in the Word and truly was finding rest.  Then Wednesday we went into town as we needed groceries and we stopped at an Internet Cafe.  After sending Mom an email saying I was alright and sending Monica a graduation message, I decided to check my other email account since I had extra time.  I was not expecting anything from Compassion and much to my excitement, and almost confusion, I had 4 emails from them in my inbox.  Although it was last minute, they were able to arrange a meeting.  This is a little excerpt from their email:

 It turns out that Soraya's mother is no longer interested in sending Soraya to the Compassion program and would like to take her out. This sometimes happens when families are interested at first when their child is first enrolled in the program and then do not want to continue with the commitment that is required.
The El Salvador representative and project director both feel that this opportunity for you to visit with Soraya has been God-ordained, as your visit and encouragement to Soraya and her mother, may be just what is needed so that she will continue with the Compassion program.
It turns out that Soraya has a little sister that lives with their grandmother, who is very interested and supportive of Compassion's work, but Soraya lives with her mother, who is the one who is not interested. This is the time to pray and PRAY HARD, that God will soften Soraya's mother's heart and that she will be encouraged by your desire to make this personal connection with her daughter this week. We do not know who will come along as Soraya's guardian for the visit - it may be her mother, grandmother or someone else from the project. Right now, this is all in God's hands.

Wow, was I overwhelmed and grateful to God.  Here I was wanting to meet Soraya to build a little connection with her so I would remember her better and be able to pray for her in a new way, but instead God was arranging something much bigger.  Praise God, He works in amazing ways!  I met Soraya, her mother, and the project director at the Children's Museum in San Salvador.  Soraya turned out to be a very shy 12 year old so although it was awesome to see her, I found it hard to make a connection.  After thinking about it, I realized that it would be overwhelming to a) meet your sponsor, b) travel to San Salvador, a big city, when you live in a rural, small town, and c) be in a museum with planes, trains, science etc. when you have never experienced anything like it before.  So although she was quiet, I built a connection.  Her mother was so grateful that I was able to come and spend this time with her.  She said I was a blessing.  And after discussing a few things, Soraya and her mother promised us that she would stay in the program!  God works in mysterious ways.  A trip that was planned last minute with a last minute meeting turned out to be life changing.  He really is amazing!  I am so grateful to God for I know that without Him none of that would have occurred.  

A beautiful reminder of God's promises and love
So I am back in Tactic, refreshed and excited because of my Lord.  I have 1.5 weeks left in Guatemala and have no idea where the time has gone.  I am excited to see everyone again but have no idea how it will be back in Canada.  I am preparing myself for a huge reverse culture shock.  But before I worry about that, April will be meeting me!  In a couple days she will be here experiencing the amazing things I have been able to experience.  I pray that her life with be changed as mine has.

Many blessings and much love. 
Rebecca

Wednesday, 29 June 2011

Surrounded by beauty and blessings

I will explain later but I am in El Salvador and have very limited internet access but at the end of this week I have the privilege of meeting my sponsor child through Compassion.  They said last minute meetings normally do not work but they believe this is God ordained.  Her mother is having doubts and is not sure if she wants to keep her in the program.  So please pray that I will be able to make a huge impact and change her life.  God is so good.  His mercies are new everyday.  El Salvador is absolutely beautiful.  When I get back to Tactic on Saturday I will update you all with more.  Love you all.
Becca

Sunday, 26 June 2011

A piece of paradise, falling in love, the power of prayer, and an amazing blessing

Last Saturday I had the privilege of going to Semuc Champey with Cathie, Walter, and some of their friends, Erick, Gloria, and their family.  Semuc Champey is a little piece of paradise.  Although it took 4 hours to get there, 1.5 hours of that on a bumpy gravel road, it was so worth it.  The closer we got, the more it felt like a jungle.  There was so much life, so much green beauty.  Vines were growing on all the trees.  It was absolutely beautiful.  But that beauty was nothing compared to what we were about to see.  Cathie, Walter, and myself did a hike to the mirador (view point).  Before we started it, there was a sign saying that it was 1.2 km long, would take about 1 hour and 15 minutes and was rated as 'difficult'.  Turns out the sign was right as the hike was basically straight up.  But it was so worth it.  The view was breath taking.  Semuc Champey is a collection of natural spring fed pools that are above an underground river.  I had never heard of anything like this before but from the mirador we could see where the strong river went underground and then at the bottom where it reemerged.  It is so hard to explain, a picture is definitely worth a thousand words.  We then climbed down and went swimming in the lovely pools.  I was struck with God's power and might in seeing where the river when underground and then also with His beauty and peace in the pools.  A few verses struck me about water.  God gives us living water.  The most amazing thing.  We never need more but thirst for more so that we can be closer to Him.  He restores us.  He replenishes us.  He gives us life.
"God thunders across the waters, Brilliant, his voice and his face, streaming brightness - God across the flood waters" (Psalm 29:3)
"For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd; he will lead them to springs of living water" (Revelations 7:17)
"The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want.  He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul." (Psalm 23:1-3)
"But whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst.  Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life" (John 4:14)
Semuc Champey was a piece of paradise for me.  I found rest, rejuvenation, and an awe for my Creator.  It truly was amazing.


The next day it rained here like I have never seen it rain.  Our road became a river.  I actually could not get to the car without getting my foot completely soaked.  But nonetheless we went to church.  Thank goodness Rio Vida Church has a mike because otherwise it would have been impossible to hear Hermana Rita preach.  And thank goodness we were able to hear her preach for the sermon was amazing.  It was about loving God.  I am still reading Crazy Love and am beginning to truly feel a love for my Lord and Savior so I was just soaking in her message.  We need to develop a love and gratitude for our Lord that encompasses our lives.  Hermana Rita gave us a few examples in which can truly bring us closer in love with God.  I will share a few with you because I think we all need to do some of them - especially in our busy North American lives.  She sets an hourly alarm for when she is awake.  When it goes off, she stops what she is doing and just expresses her love to God and her gratitude for what He has done in her life.  We can put notes on the mirror, a header on our phone, establish a set time in the day for sharing our adoration of our Lord to Him.  Whatever it takes, we all should spend more time sharing our adoration to the Lord.  I have decided that I am going to have tea dates with God.  That is what we do with friends.  We talk about coffee.  Why not do the same with God?  Prayer is powerful and I now have a desire to prayer more.  I confess that before I usually prayed in the morning, before meals, and then when I was falling asleep.  Short prayers.  Nothing amazing.  And definitely not prayers where I would listen for God.  I am going to jump ahead to this past Thursday.  Thursdays are prayer nights at the church.  I hadn't gone to any and decided that that evening I needed to go.  So I went and was completely changed.  There was worship intermingled with prayer - yes, out loud pray your heart out type of prayer.  As I did not grow up in a Pentecostal church, this is a little unnerving to me.  But once I got past my pride or fear or whatever it was, it was amazing.  God touched my heart.  I knelt on the ground and cried while I was praying for Him to touch the lives of some of the broken families in the church.  I then realized that I had a fear of love - of love going wrong, of giving everything, becoming vulnerable, and then being hurt.  I prayed that God would take this fear away and allow me to fall head first into His love and return to Him the love I have been getting for Him.  Prayer truly became powerful for me that night.  Wow, God is amazing.

Back a day to Wednesday.  Cathie, Walter, and I went back to Mocohan to do the last follow ups there.  Praise God, the boy with the infected ear, no longer has pus or pain.  He can hear better and his tympanic membrane looks a lot better.  If you haven't already picked this up, I love Colegio Vida de Mocohan.  I love the children so much.  I just love Mocohan.  So I was super excited to go back.  It meant seeing Yoselina again (and being able to visit her family as we planned a home visit!), worshiping with them again, and being with people that love me and that I love.  When we arrived, the teachers were still in their morning meeting so the kids were playing.  The moment we walked through the doors, I was surround by kids.  Next thing I knew, Yoselina was sprinting around the corner into my arms.  She then introduced me to her older sister, Erika, who excitedly told me how Yoselina was so happy that I was sponsoring her and that they had a younger sister, Bebe, who I had to meet.  It was amazing seeing her siblings and their love for each other and me.  We then started playing Pato, Pato, Ganzo with a bunch of the other kids.  I love playing that game.  Not only does it mean having a good time laughing with the kids, it also means being surrounded by them.  They were sitting on me, hanging off me, hugging me - it was fabulous.  Then it was time for worship.  This time I stood with Yoselina's class instead of at the back.  It was powerful seeing them worshiping with such passion.  Their time of worship impacted me once again.
Then after check ups came the time I was expectantly waiting for.  We took Yoselina out of class and went to her home.  Her home is also her mother's business.  They have a corn mill so ladies can grind their corn to make tortillas.  Upon arrival, I immediately noticed it was concrete.  Praise God!  They had a roof, concrete floor, and electricity.  What a blessing.  I was pretty amazed because not many families can say the same.  I brought some food with me: beans, rice, pasta, tomato sauce, tuna, cookies, and some fruit, all of which cost me about $10 Canadian.  $10 goes a long way here but still, it really wasn't that much.  However, after I gave a few gifts to Yoselina, I gave her family the food.  Her mother started to praise God and thank me.  She started to pray and as she was thanking God for blessing them with this gift, she started to cry.  She was so grateful to me.  And although from the outside it seemed like they had more than enough, that really wasn't the case.  They owed the bank a lot of money.  My little gift, blessed them immensely.  She kept thanking God for what I had brought them and that I was now sponsoring Yoselina (or Melisa or Chica as they call her at home).  They showed me around their house a bit more.  Yoselina, Elvia (her oldest sister who is in high school), her mother, and myself sat in the bedroom for a while.  Her mom started telling me how Yoselina was coming back home so excited.  She told her that the nurse from Canada was sponsoring her and that she now wanted to be a nurse too.  Wow, how amazing is that?  How did I, little Rebecca from Delta, impact her like that?  God is good!  She then told me how Yoselina was sad because I was gone (since we are at a different school now).  She thought I had gone back to Canada.  I'm so glad I hadn't gone back yet so I could share this amazing time with them!  Elvia then told me that I was now a part of their family.  This truly touched my heart.  After chatting for a while, we came back into the main room where Walter and Jose (her eldest brother who is now going to teacher school) were standing by the computer.  The computer that they borrowed money from the bank for.  The now broken computer.  Jose needed a computer for school and although Tactic has internet cafes, Mocohan does not.  Unfortunately, their efforts to try and help him, ended up becoming nothing.  This really broke my heart.  Regardless of their struggles, they are a family that definitely loves the Lord.  I was so blessed to be able to be a blessing to them.  Before we left, I prayed for them.  It was a really special time.  I will never forget this experience.  What an amazing family.  After leaving and thinking about their debt, I was left wanting to do something.  What though?  Do I find out how much they owe and pay it?  Is that the best thing?  I don't know.  I am just starting to read a book called "When Helping Hurts".  Sometimes just giving, ends up harming.  It is a weird concept to wrap your mind around for sure.  So this is something I need to pray about and figure out how I can help them in the best way.  God is good and He provides - whether that is in the form of answers to our questions, through finances, through unexpected gifts, or through His comfort and love.  


So there are a few more of my experiences, my challenges, and my joys.
I pray that you will be challenged and encouraged.  I love you all.
Many Blessings, Rebecca


"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.  Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul...Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground" Psalms 143:8,10

Thursday, 16 June 2011

The Best Hug

This week we have been doing check ups at Chamche school which is really nice because we can walk to work.  But it isn't the same as Mocohan.  The kids come from families that are generally more well off than those in Mocohan.  This is the first school that Impact started so there is a certain sense of pride that is not evident at other schools.  The atmosphere is just different.  Maybe I just have my heart in Mocohan, I don't know.  
Me telling Yoselina that I am her patrocinadora
Her response - the best hug ever!
Yesterday, we went back to Mocohan to complete a few follow up appointments.  There is a boy, Oscar, who has a really bad ear infection and will need surgery as it has been chronic and his tympanic membrane is perforated.  Unfortunately, his twin brother has a heart murmur that also requires surgery.  Hopefully, with help from Impact, they can get these surgeries.  So we checked up on both of them and a few other students.  I woke up with joy that morning knowing I would be able to worship with these children that have changed my life and also get to see Yoselina again.  We finished all of the check ups just before recess started.  When I walked out of the room we were using, two girls immediately ran to me - one being Yoselina.  So with the help of Walter (the doctor's husband), I told her that I was now her sponsor, loved, her very much, and would be praying for her every day.  She was shocked speechless and just gave me the biggest hug - the best hug ever!  She was so happy.  You could see it in her eyes.  Once the bell rang signalling the end of recess, we said our goodbyes.  But she wouldn't let go of me.  I did not want to let go of her either.  Finally, we parted ways but I made sure she knew that she would see me again.  I plan to make a house visit to her place and spend more time with her.  She is a beautiful child of God and I am so happy and blessed to be able to call her my sponsor child.

 

Monday, 13 June 2011

Live, Laugh, Love

Life in Guatemala is amazing.  I love it here more and more everyday.  I love the culture, the mountains, the people, the traditional clothing, the market, the colours, the beauty.  Nothing is dull.  There is so much life.  Yes, there is also immense poverty, but this does not mean a dullness or lifelessness in the people.  No matter where you are or who you are, you will be greeted by everyone.  Whenever I am introduced to someone, I get a hug or a sincere "Mucho gusto" (Pleased to meet you).  Everyone in the Christian community refers to each other as Hermano/a (insert name).  The meaning of family is understood.  Living in community and service is understood.  Immense love is also understood and lived out.

We finished our check ups at Mocohan on Friday.  It was sort of bitter sweet.  I have grown to know the children there and truly love them all.  They have taught me so much about worship and love.  They are amazing.  But we finished.  I took on a pilot tooth brushing program with some of the kids who needed it most - but really how do you decide who is most deserving when all of them could have major dental work done?  Barely any of them own a toothbrush or know how to brush their teeth.  So I taught about 9 of the children to brush their teeth without water because water is scarce in Mocohan.  No everyone has safe water and if they do, they don't have enough of it.  It is hard to imagine not having water.  Even here I waste so much water.  I take long showers, rinse my dishes more than necessary, use too much water when I brush my teeth... Sad.  Water is something I definitely need to be more grateful for.  I take it so for granted.  Anyways back to tooth brushing.  After 3 days of teaching and monitoring them, I gave them a toothbrush and small toothpaste as a gift.  They were all so happy.  Another thing I take for granted.  So since my little pilot project was successful, Impact is going to implement a bigger pilot project - the whole school of Mocohan once a few things are fixed since they have a working well with water now!  I bet the dentist will be glad to hear about that.  There is a nursing and dental mobile unit in Mocohan although it is not usually open because the
Yasmi (on the right) is a girl I played with 4 years ago!
government decided not to pay public health workers since January.  I wouldn't be working either.  On Thursday, I brought 7 kids with bad tooth pain over to the dentist, as their mobile unit is right beside the school, and 6 of them got teeth pulled.  They were scared but I tried to comfort them as much as possible.  One boy wouldn't open his mouth once he saw the freezing needle but after a while he decided to be brave, I held his hand, and he did it - yay Widman!  And the next day, he did not have any more pain and was happy as a clam.  
On Friday, during recess I played pato, pato, ganso (duck, duck, goose) with the kids.  It started off with 3 girls and then grew into a group of about 20 kids.  It was really fun.  I was the ganso a lot because for some reason they liked picking me.  And then when I was saying pato, pato, pato, everyone was screaming yo, yo, yo - how was I possibly supposed to pick just one?  During the game, about 5 of the girls decided to play with my hair instead.  They clung to me (making it hard when I was ganzo) but it was so wonderful.  But what did I do to deserve their undivided love and attention?  Nothing.  Sure I gave up time and the comforts of home to come and serve here but really, what did I do?  Then I got thinking what did we do to deserve the love God gives us?  Absolutely nothing.  We are so unworthy, we are sinful, we continually screw up.  But God's arms of love are always open and He continually blesses us through His never ending perfect love.  Wow, I guess we just need to accept it.  I am learning what it means to truly be in love with God.  It is pretty amazing.  For so many years I viewed Him as my Father and Creator but did not desire to be with Him or grow closer to Him.  But now I do.  I want to pick up my Bible.  I want to study a verse and pick it apart.  I want to just rest in Him.  I want to start my day of in prayer and meditation.  I still have a lot to learn but it is pretty cool.
One of the couples who got married

Back to the girls and their love for me.  One of them is named Yoselina.  She is seven, super cute, loves to laugh, smile, and just give hugs.  I went to choose a sponsor child from the upstairs guesthouse bulletin board where some of the children who still need to be sponsored are put.  And guess whose picture was there?  There was no decision for me.  I was so excited to become Yoselina's patrocinadora.  Then to make it even better at church on Sunday, she came running up to me when I arrived and gave me a huge hug.  She did not know that I was sponsoring her and that did not matter.  It is amazing to know she loves me not because I help her go to school or send her letters, she simply loves me.  We went to the daughter church of the one I usually go to in Tactic.  Impact started the one in Tactic, which is in Alta Verapaz and then they decided to start one in Baja Verapaz (where the Mocohan, Chicoy, and Puruhla schools are) because it was too difficult for them to travel the 30 minutes into Tactic.  When you don't even own a bicycle, travel is difficult - either really long or expensive.  So they have a service at Puruhla now and we were all invited to go this week to show our support and also to be apart of something pretty exciting.  Three couples who had been together for years and already had families were getting married.  Marriage is not a priority in Guatemala.  Yes, family is super important but not the actual steps of marriage.  So they wanted to make things right before God and they got married.  It was so precious and impacting.  They valued God's law and knew they needed to change things.  They were so happy.  It truly was a special thing to be a witness of.  After the service, lunch was served to everyone.  After eating my tamale, I went over to where the children were.  Yoselina was there but Karey, my roommate, cautioned me not to say anything just in case it wasn't her or something fell through.  She immediately ran to me, hugged me, and did not let go of me.  For about fifteen minutes she just sat in my arms.  She didn't run off with her friends who were playing.  I felt this amazing connection with her.  At first I had doubts.  What if my sponsor child is a different Yoselina that looks similar to her?  Satan was trying to plant worry in my heart but I knew this had to be her.  I was so at peace with it.  She already had a place in my heart and nothing could take that away.  Just to be sure I asked her what her last name was and she told me her birthday, so when I got
Yoselina is on the left!
home and checked and it is definitely her!  Wednesday we are going back to Mocohan to do a few follow up visits.  I am so excited because I can tell her that I am her patrocinadora.  That I love her so much and am now praying specifically for her all the time.  
God has blessed me with so much and I am so grateful that I can bless others.  My time here just keeps getting better.  I don't want to leave.
Let's all remember to always spread God's unconditional love to everyone we meet - whether we can find reason for them to deserve it or not.
Live, laugh and love to the fullest.


So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it. Colossians 3:12-14


 

Tuesday, 7 June 2011

Filled with Wonder, Joy, Love, Expectancy, and Peace

Wow, once again I am encompassed with amazement for my Savior.  God is so good and has been teaching me so much.  Sunday at church Les preached about Knowing God.  I was overcome by the Spirit and a hunger to know God more.  It was a great sermon but I did not get hit until the end when we started singing a song that when translated is something like this: Receive all the glory, Receive all the honor, Precious Son of God.  These words became the prayer of my entire being and I just starting crying.  At this moment, I knew that I was a sinner, who was undeserving of grace, but I also new the glory of God and that I wanted my life to be focused on growing more and more in Him.  I want it to be evident that I am living more life for the honor and glory of the true Lord.  
God is definitely moving here - in my life and the people of Guatemala.  So to know God better I am trying to follow the advice of this verse, which was read at the service: So don't lose a minute in building on what you've been given, complementing your basic faith with good character, spiritual understanding, alert discipline, passionate patience, reverent wonder, warm friendliness, and generous love, each dimension fitting into and developing the others. - 2 Peter 1:5-7
May we all be challenged to know God more and more, and for God to receive all the glory and honor in our lives.

On Monday, we did a medical clinic in the mountain town of Chacalte.  After driving up the cloud engulfed mountain and walking for 10 minutes down a muddy trail, we arrived at a one room building that Impact and the people of the church had transformed into our medical clinic.  There was a waiting area, 3 exam rooms, and a pharmacy in this dirt floor building with little light - but it all worked out!  I was nervous as I had no idea was to expect and had the fear that I may be coerced into having my own exam room (including assessments, diagnosing, and prescribing... truly a doctor's job).  But I left it all to God and asked that He would just use me to show these people His love in whatever way He had in mind.  I ended up working the pharmacy with Cathie's daughter Patricia.  Although I didn't get to exercise my nursing skills, I had a great time helping in the way I did.  When we were filling prescriptions, kids would look through the dividing sheets out of curiosity and we got to play and take pictures with them, which was really a joy!  It was hard to communicate, however, as this town speaks Achi, one of the indigenous languages that is very different from Spanish.  Nonetheless I was able to share God's love and blessings to these people through medical aid.  And just to make it more amazing, when we were finished all the children helped us pack up and carry all our supplies back to the van.  They really knew what joy was.  They blessed my heart through their eagerness to help.  And just to top off the day, our drive back down the mountain was spectacular.  Chacalte is one of the most beautiful places.  God is truly the most amazing artist!
Our Language Helpers!

Today, we were back at Mocohan school.  I just love those kids so much.  They are getting to know me now and every time I walk around, I get a million amazing hugs - it is fantastic!  If you could bottle up their love and joy (which definitely comes from God) and ship it around the world, the Earth would definitely be a better place.  It amazes me.  These children have literally nothing.  If it were not for their sponsors, they would not be going to this school, have most of the clothes they own, have a guaranteed nutritious meal in the day, and be taught about a transformed life through Christ.  They know what it is to rely on Him and to praise them with everything they have.  I wish I could stay with them forever.  One of the girls asked me if I was a patrocinadora.  I was not familiar with this word and so I answered I do not know but I am studying nursing...  That was a fail to her question but then she said her patrocinadora was a nurse in Canada.  She told me her name was Michelle and asked if I knew her.  She told me she loved her sponsor although she has never met her.  So if you sponsor a child, know that they truly love and value all you do for them!  I sponsor a child through Compassion Canada but because of all the experiences here and knowing how much these children value their sponsors, I feel compelled to sponsor a child through Impact.  If any of you have ever considered sponsoring a child and haven't, I would encourage you to look into sponsoring a deserving child through Impact Ministries (Impact's website).
I also wanted to extend a huge thank you for all of your support through prayers and finances.  I have now paid off all of my expenses for being here - praise the Lord for a month before I left, I never thought it would be possible!  I had $195 left to pay and my mom just let me know I got my tax return the other day for just under $195.  Wow God is good, all the time.  All the time, God is good!

Be encouraged for God is amazing.
Blessings in abundance,
Becca